mothering as a verb. wife in a queer marriage. proud slut for life.
Honoring all parts of myself has been a lifelong process. But after years of investigating and investing in my own pleasure, it has become my passion to help others experience the honest gratification that comes from embodying the full self and reconnecting to the erotic within. Through my work as a boundary-pushing artist, writer and somatic sex and relationship coach, I bring my multi-faceted energy to our work, serving as compass and cheerleader, helping you reprioritize your desire by inviting more imagination and play into your relationships, desires and self-expression. Together, let’s imagine something different.
From my earliest memories, I was never a child who struggled to know what it was I desired. I always knew which color dress, which flavor paleta and which boy I would be chasing on the playground. I knew how to move my body, how to fully inhabit and love it. I would bask in the thrill of running, dancing, and wrestling my younger brothers, totally uninhibited, unaware that anything about my body was wrong or in need of correction. I understood the deep pleasure my body gave me access to, and it was a power that delighted and fascinated and blossomed with me into my young teenage years, instilling confidence in myself as a newly erotic being. I knew what I wanted. I knew who I wanted. And I moved and operated with absolute assurance that what felt good was also what felt right.
But as happens with most young girls, I was worn down by the same contradictory messaging that disconnect us from our desires and ourselves. You know them. That skirt is too short to wear around your family; that skirt doesn’t show off your nice legs. Isn’t she young to have a boyfriend already? Where is your boyfriend? I quickly learned from my peers, pop culture, the church, and from family members that enjoying my sexuality meant complying with a set of limiting rules and values—that the body I inhabited could always be prettier, sexier, less prudish, less slutty, always less of some things and more of others. And still, my inner voice did not go down easy. I can remember sitting in the office of my high school counselor during “college planning” telling him I wanted to be a sex therapist. He glanced nervously around and said he wasn’t sure he could help me with that. And in his flustered reaction, I could sense the same implied message I got so often. Pleasure and desire were not only matters that made folks uncomfortable, but they were also not worthy pursuits or real sources of fulfillment. They had no place as my compass. They were dangerous. They were what would lead me astray.
And so, I tried. I held my nose and did my best to acquire a taste for things as they should be—college degree, desirable mate, career. But suppressing myself was both deadening and anxiety producing. And like too many of us, I soon discovered the rules and points of entry weren’t designed with me—neurodivergent, brown, woman —in mind. With the world around us descending into chaos, voices of wisdom are piercing through the wilderness, reminding us that not only are the “shoulds” increasingly less accessible, they are also destroying us. They are product of a colonized society that deeply fears the erotic. So, slowly but bravely, I have tuned back in to my inner voice, rejecting more and more “shoulds” along the way. Observing first dates and old couples as a bartender, living communally with another young family, as a daughter and now a mother, through queering friendships and queering my marriage and partnering with a variety of experts, I have spent most of my life studying intimacy in all forms. I have cycled in and out of different pursuits— a boudoir photographer, a doula. An ethical non-monogamy coach, erotic artist, cam girl and writer. And as I’ve enjoyed the fit of every different hat, expanded my expertise, and tapped back into my own deepest interests, one central thread continues to connect my work. That is, helping others manifest their own desires more confidently. With so much stumbling and learning and growing along the way, my greatest passion has become supporting others in escaping the limiting paradigms we operate within when designing our relationships and our lives. Becoming who we know we are does not have to happen overnight, but the first step is allowing ourselves space to imagine.
FAQs
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For many, the journey into ethical non-monogamy (ENM) starts with a conscious decision. For me, it was an intrinsic understanding that resonated deeply once I found the right language to describe it. For years, I struggled with guilt over my desire for multiple people simultaneously, feeling like a terrible person because of my inability to adhere to traditional expectations of 'faithfulness.' Discovering that I could define my relationships on my own terms was liberating. It has allowed me to fully embrace and enjoy multiple intimate relationships simultaneously, free from guilt and shame.
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Be sure to explore my services page if you haven't yet. I genuinely enjoy meeting new clients and crafting creative, customized approaches to help them achieve their goals. Typically, this involves a series of bespoke 1:1 coaching sessions that feature warm conversations, gentle prodding, and informed reflections, often accompanied by a somatic exercise. After each session, I provide homework that may include worksheets, reflection questions, and/or exercises for continued support. For those looking to delve deeper, I offer experiential sessions where we can safely explore kinks and further develop relationship skills. These sessions are tailored to your specific needs, so if there’s something you’re interested in that you don’t see listed, please feel free to ask. My network in this world is vast, so if I can’t help you I can point you in the right direction.
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Most clients work with me for about 3 to 10 sessions before moving on to experiential sessions or taking a break to fully integrate the work. Nearly all return within a year or two to continue where we left off or to address new developments in their lives.
lineage:
(where I come from and whose work informs my lens)
bell hooks, james baldwin, adrienne maree brown, dr. kim tallbear, dr. devon price, thich nhat hanh, alok vaid-menon, anais nin, kimberly ann johnson
Growing up in a Mexican-American blended family, The Charismatic Church in the early 00’s, narrowly escaping purity culture, Living abroad, Giving advice while bartending throughout my 20s, Apprentice to Midwife + Sexological Bodyworker Pati Garcia, LA kinky art scene, OF Creator + Cam Girl, Mothering Two Littles, communal living, Open Marriage —> Queering Marriage, Spending countless hours on dating apps, engaging in all kinds of relationships from sugar to vanilla to kinky, Late-diagnosed ADHD/neurodivergent, Decolonize everything, no one is free until everyone is free.
Certified Sexologist + Intimacy Coach through the S omatica Institute